Now when I say 'tis the season I don't mean holidays I mean...YES! I get to wear my big baggy hoodies and jeans! No more shorts! No more tanks! Is that any way to feel? No, absolutely not. Yet I can't help but be excited, although I even feel disgusting in my jeans and hoodies. I know all you ladies know what I'm talking about when I say I can't wait to bury my body in baggy winter clothing..Sigh. I keep telling myself "self, don't get too excited spring and summer are just around the corner and you have to break those shorts out again or you will sweat to death.
On another note, I weighed myself this morning and the numbers were awful.. 184 pounds.. I was crushed at 180 and this is just devastating. I can see every pound of it too, for heavens sake I look pregnant. The sad part is I wish I could blame it on that, but there is no possible way I could be. I have Marks 21 day body make over but I don't feel as though it's specific enough on things I can and can't eat, it needs recipes. I need some help!
Basically I'm like a child when it comes to this..SPELL IT OUT FOR ME!
You would think I have enough motivation by how disgusted I am by my own reflection but nooo, still excuse after excuse. I want this so bad, I look in the mirror and my stomach protrudes, I have stretch marks around my belly button and on both of my sides from when I was a teenager (they are white now but they used to be red). My love handles are disgusting but the worst part is are my arms. I hate them with a passion! They are freakishly fatter than the rest of me like my weight doesn't distribute evenly. Not to mention my inner thighs, UGH, They rub together when I walk. The thing that crushes me the most is that I haven't even been married a month and my rings are getting tighter on my fingers. I just want to cry.
Now isn't all of that reason enough for me to just get up and do it? You would think so but apparently not! I need a push people.
What is it that needs to SNAP in me and say "HEY, YOU! yeah you with the weight problem! Get off of your butt and do something about it! Change yourself if you don't like it!"
I need help!